socio-political self-help and stuff
i’ve spent much of my life living in fear. fear of the unknown. fear of rejection. fear of… just about everything! something is happening in me that i don’t quite understand. something is forcing and allowing me to release the fear that once held me captive and completely unable to be comfortable in my authentic self.
little things, like the opportunity to stand up to formerly scary authority figures and speak my truth – without any fear of repercussion – seem to be my life’s theme this week. i’ve become unwilling to bend and/or break when faced with situations that at one time, would have told me to be quiet. to ignore it. to let it pass. not today.
i’m finding myself suddenly willing to take chances. to step out on total faith and honor this woman. to redefine boundaries that were once blurry and broken. to have compassion for those who i, at one time, allowed to bully me. because part of my release is doing unto others…
i wish that i could tell you exactly what happened or is happening to bring this newfound strength – but i cannot. i really don’t know. i will say that almost magically, i’ve developed a profound awareness that i am not seven years old anymore and that playing small – as i learned to do in my formative years – won’t serve me in my thirties. that i really must put away all of those childish things. especially that one involving fear.